segunda-feira, 29 de julho de 2013

Poeminha do dia

Maquinomem
O homem esposou a máquina
e gerou um híbrido estranho:
um cronômetro no peito
e um dínamo no crânio.
As hemácias de seu sangue
são redondos algarismos.

Crescem cactos estatísticos
em seus abstratos jardins.

Exato planejamento,
a vida do maquinomem.
Trepidam as engrenagens
no esforço das realizações.

Em seu íntimo ignorado,
há uma estranha prisioneira,
cujos gritos estremecem
a metálica estrutura;
há reflexos flamejantes
de uma luz imponderável
que perturbam a frieza
do blindado maquinomem.

Helena Kolody

sexta-feira, 26 de julho de 2013

Ponto alto

Trágico ponto alto do dia: acontece que eu só estava precisando ser um pouco má.

Pedra

Acho que eu nunca vou me esquecer de uma conversa que eu tive com um estranho que me disse que morar sozinha tem suas desvantagens. Aquela conversa sempre me vem à tona quando eu fico triste. Ele me disse sobre uma série de coisas que nos torna, claro, maduros e preparados para a vida. Disse que aprendemos muito estando sozinhos, que a gente aprende a administrar  a própria dor. E que isso era ruim.
Sim, é ruim o bastante.
É ruim achar que temos sempre com quem contar, e na verdade não termos, e ver que, no final das contas, a gente fica bem sem ninguém.
Eu não quero que meu coração fique petrificado assim. Mas mesmo buscando ajuda, e dizendo como me sinto, eu fico sozinha... acho que a vida deve ser um caminho solitário assim mesmo.
Eu não quero que meu coração fique petrificado assim. 

sábado, 20 de julho de 2013

quarta-feira, 17 de julho de 2013

Escrever é Ok

Escrever é dar a si uma chance de falar não como quem urge, mas como quem reflete, não de forma menos verdadeira, de modo a aparentar que escolhe um pouco mais detidamente as palavras por medo de ser mal interpretado ou querer agradar aquele que lê. Quem escreve assim o faz porque os pensamentos são ágeis, e fazem eles parte de um mundo muito maior de possibilidades, de que as palavras, assim escritas, não poderão jamais alcançar. É toda uma cautela de selecionar objetos de um mundo infinito e trazê-los à finitude; limitá-los àquilo que é tangível à linguagem e à capacidade humana de reter seu conteúdo. De preferência, para o todo sempre. Falar não demanda tudo isso. Falar requer apenas um ouvinte. Escrever demanda fixar, fixar com a alma e o coração. E não há nada de impessoal nisso. Guardar cartas de amor nunca será igual a guardar vagas memórias de uma declaração falada de amor. 
Escrever é OK

quarta-feira, 10 de julho de 2013

Status

Tired of love cliché.
Can't find an image/poem/phrase/song to express how I feel about you. 

terça-feira, 2 de julho de 2013

102 of me

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
YES.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
NO.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
I always feel like this at least once a week :(
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Of course.
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I hope not. 
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Still haven't listen to anything but interviews, haha. But I wouldn't have to. I always think about my bf. 
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
An inca trouser and a gap sweatshirt (yeah, I know, fashion is not my best at home)
8. How often do you listen to music?
Everyday 
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
I hope so. In a good way.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Depends on the day and the people around. I'm shy, btw.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
No
13. What about ‘R’?
Yes.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
No...
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Sometimes
16. Are you going out of town soon?
Yes
17. When was the last time you cried?
Two days ago, I think
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
I always told them if so. 
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
No, thanks. 
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Yes, my future son. 
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
Laziness
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
Not when ALL you wish is for a REAL kiss. But usually, yeah. 
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
I'm not dating my housekeeper :P
24. What are you sitting on right now?
On the chair I chose myself :)
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
YES, my bf and some of my dearest friends
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
I don't think so.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My bf. Via facebook.
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
No, but I'm facing one right now... God.
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
It's really PJ :P
30. Does anyone hate you?
I don't think so. Didn't actually give anyone reasons to.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
No, I have an empty bottle of water I should fill up...
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Yes, with the right people.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
No, thanks. 
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
2010. Or maybe 2006.
35. Did you have a dream last night?
Yes.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
I'll tell him right now. But it was yesterday night. 
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I hope so. 
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Yes, enough people ;)
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Yes. Cause I sent him a mesage, haha.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Yes
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Sure.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
I have a meeting with my ex classmates - they're all girls, so, yes.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Yes. But even though they always did. Hope it's different now.
44. What’s the best part about school?
Homework! Ok, friends, snack, lovely teachers, teachers' joke... I always liked school, don't get me weird.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
It's a FACEBOOK.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
Yes. Always. I'm a nice person to have around at school, haha
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes. That's mostly why I can't sleep...
48. Were you single over the last summer?
No
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Not at all. It's way better.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
I have to restart studying very soon
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No, I love him.
52. Are you nice to everyone?
Not really. I can be cruel sometimes. But I try...
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
It always lasted more than 6 months... and I never cheated. 
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes, yes. But not with some people, though. 
56. Do you think you like someone?
I like a lot of "someones". My family, my friends, my bf. Some of them I simple love. My bf has my entire heart. But he's not jealous, so he borrow them some space in it too ;)
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
Oh, my. I wish I could kiss him everyday of my life. 
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
I'm not so good with girls, I must confess, but I'm trying hard, cause I still think it's the best thing to do. 
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yes. 
60. Do you hate anyone?
Not really. But I get angry easily. And forgive easily too. 
61. How’s your heart?
Actually, the doctor said it's ok! Ok, it's just really well.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
No, I have nothing to hide. 
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
Probably, no one. I really believe I'm loved. I'm not so dearest, but I'm loved. 
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
No... God.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No. Or maybe yes. Cause I'll always want more...
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
Not really. I don't know how to act. 
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
No.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Mama
70. How do you look right now?
My hair is ok. My face is not. 
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Yes, indeed. At least 9 persons.
72. Can you commit to one person?
Yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yes. Kind of my bff. 
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes. But in the end, it's always for the best. 
75. Did you wake up cranky?
No
76. Are you a jealous person?
Not always. I'm really an easy person.
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Yes
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
No
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
Yes
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Swim 
81. Last person you cried in front of?
My love. Sorry... I keep crying...
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yes
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
Yes
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Cuddling. 
85. Are you over your past?
Not entirely 
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
No, I mean, not any of my currently best friends.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Yes.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
If it was chocolate, I would accept his apology and eat the chocolates, haha. All of them are currently forgiven. No hate in my heart. Truth is, I don't see or talk to them anymore. It's just life. 
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
Sure. 
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Yes. And I'm sorry I didn't listen to you, guys. But I know you forgave me.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
Yes. 
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Jordan, Jackson... ok, Yes, I know.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
I don't know any Matthew.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
Yes. It's still going on... so...
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
Yes, sure.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Oh, boy. He drives me crazy, yes. 
97. Who do you have texts from?
Family, friens, bf.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Gosh, I think I would cry a lot and ask stupid things like "but why?". Really, I'm not prepared for this.
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
No one.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
No... :(
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yes.